#19 Pyaaz Bytes: A Blessed Thing

Heyo People,

After a long hiatus, here I am again, wanting again to rant about my life. I decided to write today because I like writing better than speaking (yes, I am the text over calls person most times) and no one listens to my shit anyways, so I hope someone might read it.

I woke up at 7:45 am today, which is 3 hours prior to my usual waking up time. This miracle happened because I woke up at 6:30 am yesterday after being coaxed by a friend to go for a run, hence I slept at 12, which is 3 hours prior to my usual dozing off time. I was supposed to wake up at 6 again, but I lazed around because my friend did not call me, so lack of extrinsic motivation, and also, I am me, so lack of intrinsic motivation. I finally motivated myself to wake up and workout a little because my legs were already aching and taking too much rest would not help. Also, I really want to be fit and healthy because that is how humans are supposed to be and I am not feeling good about my physical health right now. I have also gained a lot of weight which is now showing on my body, which I do not really mind as I still love how I look and I do look awesome, but my clothes do not fit me anymore and some of them are expensive. So I need to drop off that belly fat.

After waking up and wasting 10 mins checking social media, same way I did above by digressing from the point, I put on some music and went to brush my teeth. While looking at myself in the mirror, I felt so blessed. I felt blessed for being able to live alone and having the freedom to listen to music out loud and groove to it while brushing my teeth. Yes, this simple thing made me feel happy. Then I did start thinking about work and ten other stressors which plague my life, but despite all that, I did have the moment, which made me happy. I sensed a strong appreciation for my mind and soul because even after so much recent mental and emotional turmoil, it can still conjure the good things in my life which truly over power the bad ones and make even the difficult events feel like a blessing. Or maybe it is just a result of sleeping for more than 4 hours after a month. Who knows. 😛

I then did some jumping jacks and started to fall asleep while doing crunches, so I did a 10 minute zumba for which I was checking the time every 2 minutes because my stamina dips faster than the logical arguments of bhakts (wait, that’s not possible, they have no logic), followed by a 10 minute guided meditation audio, during which I thought about blogging because the audio was asking me to be in the present and I LISTEN TO NO MAN! 😛

Drinking my hot water with honey and ginger right now along with eating seeds, while realizing that it is already 10 am and these activities should be done 2 hours earlier. Better late than never though.

Here’s hoping for more good things to happen today and a better tomorrow.

Cheers.

Let’s Imagine

I was talking to a relative of mine today, let’s call her Meena, and the topic of discussion was (any guesse?), the spreading of the rona (No shit Sherlock!).

 Meena told me how the virus was spreading even more now due to the easing of lockdown. It is true. The cases were bound to increase due to the increased contact. However, how long could we have lived under the lockdown, given that the economy needs to run too. When I told her this, she said that how it was all because of migrant laborers. They could have just stayed where they were and prevent the spread. They anyways would not have anything back home.

 I asked her what they would have eaten. She told that she has seen on the news and around her how they were being provided food and ration kits by NGOs and the government. I did not ask any questions after that because it would have led to an argument and “disrespect” towards her as she is much elder to me, as it is among many families. This is how dissent is killed in the house.

Anyways, I began thinking more deeply about what she had said. My first thought was that she did not say anything wrong according to her perspective. They are getting food and ration kits at many places and yes, they have meagre resources even in their native places, given the deplorable state of poor in the country (“Sabka Vikas” they said).

However, even if we assume, and that is a capital IF, that all the migrants are getting ration kits, there are still several gaps in the quondam observation. What about the fuel? Is the quantity of ration enough for the entire family? For how many days can they live on one kit and when will it be replenished?

 If they are being given ready-made food, what is the mode? For how many hours do they have to stand in line for a meal? How far they have to go for it? How is it not breaking the social distancing norms? Can children, pregnant women or the old access the food? Can one member bring food for everybody and are their stomachs filled?

The biggest question of all, how long can they continue living on this charity?

Our general tendency is to think that those people are already poor and they are used to living like this. We are wrong. The migrant laborers are not beggars and they are not used to living on charity. They have come hundreds of kilometres away from their villages and living in ramshackle slums or on the street, but are still working hard to make ends meet. Enough talk, now let us do a thought experiment.

I know it might be tough, but let’s imagine. Imagine yourself in a metropolis. You are away from your family, living with 6 people, employed in a similar job as you, in a 2bhk as it is the only way you can afford to pay the rent. You know there is something called Karuna virus but it is not affecting you as of now. On a fateful night at 8 p.m., the Prime Minister announced that a lock-down will be imposed in the next four hours. You are dumbstruck. You do not know what to do. You and your flatmates quickly scramble some money and go out to buy the supplies. The crowd is huge in all the shops but you all persevere and bring the ration which would last a few days. By the next week, your company begins downsizing and you lose your job. Your flatmates suffer from the same fate. You start scraping the food off your plate to satisfy your hunger. Your landlord keeps calling you to pay the rent or else and you keep delaying it. The ration got over faster than you imagined and your savings have dried up too. Your flatmates do not have enough to sustain you either. Your family is unable to send any money as other members need it too right now. You find an NGO which is distributing food 5 kms away and you have to walk in the scorching heat for one meal. You don’t know what will happen next. Your energy is draining everyday. No jobs are open for you. You hate standing in the line for 3 hours for a meal. You fear contamination. You see no hope.

Would you not be desperate to at least be with your family? How long could you live on the charity of an NGO or a local politician? What if the funding of the food provider stops any day? What happens then? How long would you have waited for any news to come or anybody to provide you with the means of transport to take you home in these times of extreme uncertainty? Imagine the physical and psychological implications it would have on you, who gets sad if your favorite shoes gets sold out on Myntra.

They waited for more than 2 months with no job, very limited food obtained via charity, a pregnant wife, small children, old parents in a tiny one room at a slum. How hopeless they must have felt before they decided to walk for hundreds of kilometres with their luggage and small children, during a situation where no dhabas or shops would be open on the way to give them some respite. They began to walk and we blamed them. The government provided trains (better late than never) and more than 80 people have died on them due to lack of food and water despite the assurance that they will be provided for. How dare we blame them?

People like us are flocking on airplanes and non-shramik trains to go to places. Why are we not blaming them for the spread? Why are we blaming only the poor, who have been made helpless by the likes of us?

Most of us, the privileged, are sitting at home, watching the shit shows which are still being branded as news, eating chips and making social commentary. How dare any of us question the migrants for wanting to go home? If we cannot help them, we can at least empathize, understand and question the entire broken system which have resulted in this havoc. No, I am not talking about the havoc of the pandemic. The system was already broken, and the pandemic is showing us the manifestations of it.

Would you have liked if you were suffering being treated the same way as the migrants?

I know it’s a tough one but just for a minute, imagine yourself in that situation. If your answer is “No” then count your privilege, question everything and treat your maid a little nicely the next time she comes home. You are not doing her a favour by paying her. Think about it.